Monday, January 7, 2019


 First of all Happy New Year! 

It's somehow 2019 the last year we'll ever live in a TEEN year.....I haven't written a blogpost in quite some time and I'm so sorry i've neglected you guys! Last year I had so many incredible spontaneous trips that really caught me off guard therefore it was near to impossible for me to keep up with my blog...or really to stay inspired to keep up I wasn't feeling it. Which makes me sad because i've always used my blog as an outlet to inspire and write what's on my mind, so I promise no matter what gets thrown at me this year i'm going to speak my mind and give you loads of fun inspiration. Or so I hope anything I write inspires you a little. If i'm doing that with at least one of you then my day is made.

A look back on LAST YEAR..... and what I hope to achieve this year.

I want to talk about some things that I want to accomplish this year. Traveling has always been my number one goal no matter how broke I am (which wow last year I don't even know how I made rent each be honest.) But I got to go to three amazing countries i've never been to...Costa Rica, Italy, and Australia. Two states i've never been to Colorado and Utah. Going to be real with you guys after quitting a full time job and sticking with freelance for a year it's been overwhelmingly exhausting the amount of little jobs I do and put my all into each and every single one of them for little pay has been crazy....and my best friend and I live together and we both became freelance last year. So juggling rent and bills while being freelance and not having anyone to rely on but ourselves was a HUGE hurdle. To be honest though I wouldn't have it any other way. To say that we overcame it would be lying let's be honest we're still struggling but it's made last year interesting. Im so thankful that I got to see the world in the way I did last year and I hope to travel to even more places i've never been this year.
So TRAVELING is still a huge thing I need to do this year once you get the travel bug if i'm home for more than a month i'm like WHERE CAN I GO NEXT and HOW CAN I MAKE IT HAPPEN. I have a few places in mind but they're all just ideas at the moment. Canada, London, Hawaii back to Australia just to name a few. I believe in saying I WILL and I'm GOING to _______ this year and manifesting it so it'll happen instead of saying "I want." I can't tell you how many times i've actually done that and I end up somehow being able to go to the place. IT'S WEIRD. I'm telling you things are possible if you work your butt off every single day....make goals for yourself and don't expect anything to be handed to you.


One huge thing that I feel like I did a lot last year was compare myself to others. I KNOW I KNOW with Instagram it's impossible not to do that though and I force myself to not be on it as often but it's my job so what can I do. I also live in the most superficial place ever Los Angeles....This idea of "perfection" is so unhealthy it's disgusting i'm sick of it and I think a lot of people are getting sick of it too no one is perfect and you're never going to be perfect. Also everything you see online is a facade it's only 1% of that person, it's a highlight reel if you let it become who you are and not what you do then it's going to eat you alive.  So I'm starting this year off with a clean slate I'm gonna post what I want no matter how many likes it gets, because if I like it then that's good enough. We all need to make a change and just be happy with ourselves and be proud of every single persons path....we're all on different paths and once you realize that it's a breath of fresh air. We need to be kinder to each other ALWAYS and stop competing with each other. 

I want to always do better, be better, be kinder, be there for my friends, be supportive as fuck, and strive for my goals. I'll be starting every morning with a plan and if I knock out one or two or ten i'll know that I did something great that day. But let me tell you we all start off the year like this and don't hold ourselves accountable for these me I started off on the 1st hungover in bed it was disappointing but doesn't mean i'll be having a shitty year! Can only go up from here. 

So here's to MAKING things happen and not waiting for them to happen. Grabbing our plans and dreams by the hand and gliding them towards a certain direction. But remember plans change and so do dreams so take every opportunity that may stumble and knock on your door but also feel free to lock that door and never look back. 

First shoots of 2019: photos by @darkmintdaisy edited with my presets @dwfcpresets
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Tuesday, July 31, 2018

underneath it all

I think so many of us get to a point where we're trying, trying, trying and our best isn't feeling quite good enough. The comparison to others overwhelms you and if it came to drowning or swimming you'd drown. I've been feeling like this a lot lately. Drowning emotionally. Just uninspired, feeling like i'm not good enough; thinking what the heck am I doing with my life?! So many questions running through my mind I wish I had a pause button or a mute button for my brain. Don't get me wrong I love my life and I have the most amazing opportunities knocking at my door but i'm just trying to be vulnerable here, in a space where I can be nothing but myself. 

I sat down with no clue on what to write but uploading these images something inside me ignited. I felt inspired for once in a few months... and I wanted to inspire you or give you hope or whatever you gain out of reading this.  I felt inspired to share some things. To show you what's underneath it all. Things are never what they seem and I constantly have to remind myself of that. I've always been one to continue to push myself in all aspects of my life. I've been taught to be grateful for every opportunity. So when someone pushes you to your limit it feels like a million pieces of your heart shatters. It's never easy dealing with the people that consume your sunlight and the past few months all they've wanted was to see me fail. I let them break me and push me around to benefit their way of life. I let them get to me, feeling like my all wasn't even close to being enough. We all have had this type of person come into our life and stain us, because after them we're never going to be the same. 

It's hard to continue to get inspired or feel inspired 24/7. I don't think any human being is 100% inspired always, we're HUMAN. We have to go through things, and grow through things. We have to learn from the chaos and gain something positive from the experience. As i'm growing from what changed me I think I'll let their negativity drive me to do shoots like the one below. Feeling completely and utterly at peace, using my art to speak. & going topless because it's freeing! 

  Underneath it all is a heart that beats for peace, friendship, happiness and most importantly love. We have to love each other, empower each other, and believe in each other. 

so trust me when I say your best is good enough, and i'm proud of how far you've come. 
I'm telling myself that everyday.



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